No crush!

I realized that, for a long LOOOOOOOONG time, I haven’t had a crush. Not a real honest-to-goodness heavy-heart-beating-pining-yearning crush. Either because there’s no one to have a crush on — at least not someone that I could actually see in person — or because I keep myself so busy that I don’t have time. Or because I only want them during fleeting moments like this.

I have a friend who moves from crush to crush, and her life is full of intrigue. “Does he like me? Does he find me attractive?” She will call me to read the crush du jour’s e-mail messages to see if she’s reading too much into them (usually, yes, she is). But it gives her excitement. Will she see him today? What will he be wearing? What will he think of what SHE’S wearing? I think she really likes the mystery of it.

What also hasn’t happened lately is being the object of a crush. I don’t mind that one so much. Nothing’s worse than knowing that someone has feelings for you that you don’t return. And even if you like them as a friend, you’re forced to be cautious so that you don’t do anything that will take you even remotely outside of the boundaries of friendship.

Whew! Okay, I think it’s out of my system now. I can get back to work.